New Way of Thinking

The “AHA!” light turned on this morning. I had it backakwards when I thought about my desires. Many of my desires show up in my life because they are within the parameters of what I believe that I can have. I desire them, but I don’t spend much thought on them because I have no doubts about having them.

I desire a lot of things that are outside the parameters of what I believe that I can have. What I see clearly now, is that I spend a lot of thought on those desires, however, the thoughts are negative ones generating bad feelings. My underlying set point about such desires is “I can’t have that.” If I can’t have that, it follows that I can’t enjoy in thinking about them. That is an erroneous point of view. I can take pleasure, I can take a lot of pleasure in thinkging about every one of my desires, particularly those that are about castles in Spain and horse ranches in Alberta.

“The Shoulds” Make Me Tired

Given that I am devoting the final third of my life to pure happiness, I am pretty sure that my thoughts need adjustment or the lens of my attention needs more focus on thoughts that feel good.

This morning, I am feeling about a mile away from happy; instead I am feeling dutiful and responsible. Already I feel tired and I just got out of bed after a good night’s sleep.

Just Toss It and Start Afresh

The current personality is beyond fixing. I am just plain tired of me and my dreary self. Why bother gluing the cracks and chips. Just toss it away, I am only holding on to it for sentimental reasons, and what’s the point of holding on to drab sentiments. I am going to throw “the shoulds and the responsibilities” over my shoulder and listent to them crash and shatter.

I am going to start fresh and spend my time with new thoughts that have that I haven’t thought before. Saturday, I had a wonderful time thinking about opals and finding images of expensive opal jewelry. I also enjoyed myself listening to way that writer Charles Stross handled the language of the second person singular in his book “Holding Sta

All I Want for My Birthday

Post Script

I am holding on to one “should.” I really want the trash to go out on Mondays, or there will be no room for me in the house within thirty days.