Halfway into my morning cup of coffee, I noticed that I was feeling glum because, because, because my mind was busily engaged with “figuring it out.” In a nutshell, I was resenting an item on my “To Do” list that I was doing for another person instead of myself.
Resenting the situation felt bad; thoughts ricocheting between the pros and cons of the matter was only adding more to the pile of bad feeling. Then I woke up to the fact that I didn’t have to think about “the problem” at all. I could simply start thinking about something else entirely. So I started thinking about my exciting project of replacing the crap carpet on the sun porch with Flor tiles: soft sage and grey that will go splendidly with curtains. Just thinking about placing the order has jazzed me. Today is a very good day indeed and I am feeling fine.
At 9:55 A.M. this post started as a rant and rave. A prior commitment forced me to walk away. At 3:24 I have returned to finish this post. I have a choice. I can finish the rant and rave and take a carpet ride on unpleasant feelings.
I am sitting on a cusp point. I can chose a different set of feelings by thinking a different set of thoughts. Am I repressing the rant and rave feelings? No, I am electing not to perpetuate a habitual feeling response, I am choosing to drop one feeling as a toddler drops a toy and pick up a different feeling simply by shifting focus to a different set of thoughts. That’s an act of creative imagination
I don’t wanna I don’t wanna do this; I don’t wanna do that; I don’t wanna be around anyone; I don’t wanna anyone around me; I don’t wanna any trouble today; I don’t want difficulties today: I wanna day that goes smoothly; I wanna day without aggravation: I wanna a day when I do what I want to do; I wanna a day that is productive; Like Greta Garbo, “I want to be alone”
One of my best friends in childhood. She loved to laugh, and she taught me to appreciate classic paintings. It’s been a while since I have thought of you, but today, on your birthday, my mind is flooded with warm and happy memories.