After Twenty Minutes of Worry, Think About Something Else
This morning I realized that I am wasting energy AND distracting myself by mulling an issue over and over and going nowhere. This has been going round and round for twenty minutes, and I am feeling worse and worse without any result.
At issue is the thought “too much of my time is absorbed by another’s perceived need.” In short, I have a beef Genny’s demands on my time. This feels lousy, and I want to feel better. One thing I feel sure: broaching the subject to Genny, and “laying down the law” about the amount of my time she can have in a day will not produce an outcome that I want.
What do I want? I want to dedicate more time to my income generating projects while at the same time, I want Genny to continue visiting her “ladies” in safety and comfort. I want what I want, and I want Genny to have what she wants. Experience tells me that both of us can have what we want, if I don’t get my knickers in a twist.
I believe (and I experience has provided validation) there is a solution in the vortex. My poor brain is not capable on its own, so I am dumping this issue in the “the manager’s lap” lock, stock and barrel.
Today, I am not allowing one more thought about this to last as much as 17 seconds. Today, I make the best of whatever comes along: furthermore, I am going to milk as much fun as possible out of this day.
All I want to do right now is curl up and sleep for another hour, or two, or three. However, if a fairy godmother offered me the choice between napping and novel writing I would choose novel writing.
Although I don’t feel it right now, I know that I truly desire to finish the novel and be a NaNoWriMo winner. That desire is being held for me in storage, waiting for pick-up. On one level it is already completed; it was instantly finished when I decided to participate.
My job is to line up my thoughts and feelings. I need to dump old thoughts and beliefs filled with doubts and acquire new ones that support me as a writer.
After all, I am writing a 50,000-word novel that is free from any requirements at all in terms of being a good novel, or an interesting novel. The syntax requirement is basic; and the spelling and grammar requirements are minimal: they simply have to approximate English, as that is the language in which I write.
Furthermore, I am enjoying my characters, and I am interested in how the action will move them out of a luxurious life in Hartford ( why did I choose Hartford instead of New York?) to the mud and blood of World War I battlefields. Side Note: The fact that American Red Cross nurses were also in Russia and China is intriguing but needs to be set aside for now.
This morning, I woke up with genuine excitement about my life washing over me. Yesterday was such a success as a result of maintaining the day’s intention for the day: operate in a zone of quiet satisfaction.
Quiet satisfaction about small tasks, quiet satisfaction from engaging in mundane daily tasks. Focusing on the thought that satisfaction in daily tasks creates satisfaction in all things.
I really love the morning meditations, and the morning immersion in the humorous wisdom of Abraham. My life feels filled with richness as if it were wrapped in velvet, and cashmere, and damask silks.
I know absolutely that my life forward will be filled with wondrous things, because I find that it is already filled with wondrous things. It is filled with wondrous things because I am creating them as being wondrous things. I am using the power of NOW to choose the better feeling thought, and to choose the point of view that wondrous things surround me.
I feel so happy when I create something with Illustrator and Photoshop-all of the Adobe products in fact. I simply love learning, then creating with that software. One of the ways that I align with happiness, and satisfaction and feeling abundant and clear and confident is creating an illustration and a picture. Just like my morning drink of lemon juice, I drink my morning happiness of creating something wonderful.
Happily, I realized that I am on my way to solutions for the contrast that send me to bed last night: creating the logo of two tires without that white background. After this mornings exercise with selecting the white roses, then placing them on the background, my skill increased twofold with handling that type of illustrating requirement. There is no difference between finding solutions for small things than big things except the way you think and feel about them.
Its All in the Feeling
This morning’s session with Abraham was one that really hit home for me: feeling, feeling, feeling the abundance. In turn, I feel the mastery in the daily routines that I select for myself and that enhances my mastery with building my business, building a blog with a huge following. So much fun now and so much to look forward to moving into existence today and tomorrow. Feeling mastery with the small and boring creates feeling mastery in the “important” things.